To all my best friends..(U know who u r )

We’d get excited over stupid stuff
And before I knew it, we’d laughed til morning
We’re supposedly adults now, but nothing’s changed
You are my best friend
It’s embarrassing, so I can never say thank you
This isn’t any place special
But I want to stay here forever
The streets where we grew up
Have changed since those days
But as the seasons pass, please don’t ever change
You are my best friend
Sometimes we fight over little things
But the more we engage each other
The more we understand each other
I’m sure I’ll never say it out loud
But the truth is, when I’m with you
Is when my heart is warmest 
You are my best friend
We are never alone
You’re the only one who shows me such casual kindness
Thank you

(Excuse the lousy english. A Japanese wrote this poem. Go Figure.)

One more thing that i would like to share..

What exactly is a soul mate?  The one person in all the world, in all your life, who is meant to love you and only you?  Who understands you deeply and fully and accepts you for who you are?  Who you are destined to be with, if only you can find each other in this lifetime?

I understand the draw to the idea of a soul mate:  it carries with it a mystical, larger-than-life quality, as if a person were sent to you from the past or the future, a divine emissary, cast from the hand of God.  It’s also a great romantic idea:  how better to re-imagine our lives or current relationship than through the lens of "if only I knew my soul mate."  With this soul mate by your side, your life would be perfect, right?  You wouldn’t feel sad, stressed, or alone?  Everything in your life would fall into place . . . as if my magic.

You’ve probably guessed that I am a reluctant believer in the concept of a soul mate.  I think it’s an abstract ideal that can often be a distraction to us, keeping our heads in the stars rather on what is real, and full of life in the here and now.  If someone gets attached to such an ideal, they are less likely to feel motivated to accept and love the people who are in their lives.  They are less likely to accept themselves as imperfect as well.  They are also less likely to try to make a loving relationship work.

However, I do believe that soul mates can be created.  We all can learn to love more fully, forgive imperfections (our own as well as those of the people we love in our lives), and in that spirit, give that person, that partner, that spouse, the potential to be a soul mate.

I think this is interesting…

Who handles break-up better??

Some relationships end with fighting. Some end with crying. Some end with verbal insults (or dishes) being thrown at sound-barrier-breaking speeds. Whatever the case, break-ups can be uglier than some Dancing with the Stars performances. Let’s face it: some relationships aren’t meant to be, so a break-up averts a bigger disaster. So when the Love Boat hits the iceberg, who handles it better? My answer: Women. Several studies show that men experience more depression, distress, and anxiety after break-ups than women do. Men might like to come across as being tougher than overcooked steak after a breakup, but the truth is that they’re actually more the consistency of jelly. Here’s why some men come undone during a breakup:

Men Mask Their Pain
When a guy is dumped, his first reaction is: I’ll show her. How he sometimes does it: With a couple pitchers and a night out with the guys. In fact, 26 percent of men say that the dumped party should get drunk with the guys after a break-up, according to a Men’s Health online survey. But those beer swillers are actually in the minority: 36 percent say a guy should look at his new ex, smile, and thank her. The thing is, both of those reactions are exactly the same thing-masks for their true feelings. They can’t deal with being hurt, or angry, or bummed. It’s not until after they get past their initial reaction that men actually mourn the loss of the relationship. Women are more likely to cry soon after the breakup, and they’re also more likely to use straight talk when ending a relationship, studies find. So women face their relationship blues head on, and get them out of their systems earlier. Many men tend to repress their reaction, so it lingers like basement mold.

Men Have Fewer Friends
One of the reasons why women can get over sour relationships faster than the guys they breaks up with is that women have an amazing network of people to latch on to. Research indicates that men depend on romantic relationships for emotional intimacy and social support, whereas women are more likely to turn to family and female friends to satisfy those needs. Mothers, sisters, friends, hairdressers, cabbies, whoever-the more times she tells the story about what a jerk he was, the better she’s going to feel. A man, on the other hand, stays corked. Often he shrugs off a break-up with a shoulder shrug, shoots a Jager shot, and tries to convince himself that he’s not upset. That is, until about six months later, at 1AM after the fourth pitcher, when he confesses to his buds that all he ever wanted is for the ex take him back.
 
Men Hate Starting Over
After the break-up, a man may feel an initial surge of excitement of future prospects-the women he’s yet to meet. But after three, four, or two dozen dates, he realizes that it’s going to take a long time to reach the level of comfort he had with his ex. Research conducted at Carnegie Mellon University suggests that women adjust better to the end of a relationship because they’ve already given consideration to the possibility of a break-up, whereas men are typically unprepared for it. While that sense of emotional security can’t be the only reason to stay together, it also makes him realize that he was very lucky to have a woman like her. Meanwhile, she’s already moved on. And perhaps the only time he lets his guard down enough to admit the emotional truth is when he’s drunk dialing her. And that’s too little, way too late.

Men Idealize the Dating Game
Many breakups are a knee-jerk reaction to what men perceive as stagnation: He’s bored with the same restaurants or the same petty arguments. Once he’s back on the prowl, he thinks, he’ll be bedding 10s and living the high life. After the break-up, however, he quickly realizes that the singles scene isn’t all champagne–it’s work. Instead of the exciting bar scene, he finds that he misses the intimacy of his past relationship. Studies show that women consistently outscore men on measures of social, sexual, and intellectual intimacy–and women are often quicker than men to realize that intimacy  provides the foundation of a lasting relationship, not the sexual thrills.

Everything is ending, soon it will be over.
Feels like im standing on this clif,looking out into this huge foggy abyss,
My whole life there’s never been an abyss,hmm..its been ‘abysless’
Ive always known exactly what is in front of me
and i always know where exactly am i going
Now, i dont know whats out there
Well,besides a tonne of fog..
Urghh..i hate not knowing

There are so many things to do this cuti. Looks like i wont get to do everything i planned.Huhu..Sedihnye. All my S**Ls friend will go mountain climbing tomorrow, to Gunung Tahan for nine days or so. I wish im going but seriously,i cannot imagine takde toilet for 9 days. Usually, if we go camping the longest it took like 2-3 days. So, i can ‘tahan’ until jumpa proper toilet. One more major thing, of course stamina tak cukup. Im working on it. Insyaallah,before grad i’ll conquer at least one of the famous mountain in Malaysia. Hahaha..that is actually very pathethic for an ARCians (Adventure & Recreational Club). Most of them finish all the 7 famous mountains by the time they finish their degree. :p

Its ok, i have a lot of ‘assignments’ to do anyways. That surely will keep me occupied until the short semester starts. Oh,when i say ‘assignments’ i mean ‘drama series’. I’ve finished The OC season 4. I love it,much better than One tree Hill which i’ve stopped watching because I hate Peyton and Lucas being together, miss Nathan and Haley though. Huhu..I think they’re the cutest couple on screen, along with summer and seth of course. God..so cute!! I prefer ryan and taylor than ryan and marissa. Taylor is more fun,less drama. Cant stand marissa’s drama but i cried a lil bit at the end of season 3. That last episode before marissa died was kinda sad,i think. Other than OC, i have some other series yet to finish. Hmm..let see. My boss my hero, Kurosagi, Gokusen, Which star are you from? and Sorry, I love You. This is what happen when you have an external hard disc and a friend like Pipah who eventually is my main source for korean and japanese drama series. She’s a drama-series-collector freak!! everybody knows that. Hhahah.. (Luv u peepss..!!)

Oh..one more thing. Since i’ve stop watching one tree hill because i cant stand peyton, i downloaded some Nathan-Haley clips just so i can still watch how adorable,sweet and cute NATHAN is..and i finally found the full version of the song ‘HALO’ from Haley James. Loooovvve it. Keep looping that song on my computer everyday. And the lyrics is also very nice.

Ok,CIOW..

Halo - Haley James Scott

Verse 1
I never promised you a ray of light,
I never promised there’d be sunshine everyday,
I give you everything I have, the good, the bad.
Why do you put me on a pedestal,
I’m so up high that I can’t see the ground below,
So help me down you’ve got it wrong, I don’t belong there.

Chorus:
One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn’t say so
you wouldn’t say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

Verse 2
I always said that I would make mistakes,
I’m only human, and that’s my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don’t be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
so pull me from that pedestal,
I don’t belong there.

Chorus:
One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn’t say so
you wouldn’t say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

Why you think that you know me
But In your eyes
I am something above you
It’s only in your mind
Only in your mind
I wear a
I wear a
I wear a Halo

One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn’t say so
you wouldn’t say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

Haaaa ha-ha halo (x9)

Huhuh..I know its kinda lame posting an entry on my birthday, talking about it. But Im gonna do it anyways. :p Hehe. Its been a while since i last blogged. I do have a lot to say but i always end up writing a dull-boring entry. So, i just saved it as draft instead. Anyways,im 22 years old today. Errr..not much to be proud of. But of course, im thankful to god for everything i’ve been blessed with. I have the best family and friends in the world. Wouldnt want it differently. But somehow, now i understand why some people dont get excited about their birthdays. When I was younger, I looked forward to be 13, 16, 18 and 21. But at 22, Im sooo not looking forward to an age anymore (unless you are waiting to be 35 so you can run for president). I think a lot of people would be pleased as to punch or to hover at 22 for a decade or so. How ever it may be,im still excited about putting more wisdom and experience under my belt. That, i Cant wait..

Whatever it is, turning 22, i have no regrets. I will still be the cheerful-bubbly-talkative-me. Always..i know that for sure :p

I decide not to go home again this weekend. Just so i can pay a bit more attention to my studies. I actually miss studying hard,concentrating. Havent had that in a long time. Is it normal? For a 3rd year engineering student?? Huhuh..but once again, i failed miserably. I didnt even manage to finish even 1 page of chapter 6-transport phenomena. Huhuhuh..Lepaking is actually contagious and addictive. I did absolutely nothing. Simply lepaking,gossipping and having fun with my friends. Sedihnye..rasa cam sangat malas,useless n hopeless…Oh yup and moneyless too.

Life sucks! 

My last entry make me think of something else. How i must have already let go a lot of things to be where I am right now. People messed up all the time. Sometimes, you get hurt and some other times, intentionally or not..You are the one who hurt people. Things like that happen. And worst, if those things happen between you and those people close to your heart. Well, remember we are human being. We have our ups and downs. We have emotions and of coz uncontrollable hormones. The best thing to do is forgive,and let go. I hate to admit this but I think a guy had thought me this. Unintentionally maybe. LET GO !! Stop over reacting and over analyzing. If you think, you cant stand a person GET SOME DISTANCE & SPACE..Cool down. You might just get up one day, realizing you dont hate that person anymore. There’s still some friendship to build. Or else, if u act otherwise..u might lost it..forever! So, people…stop cutting of friends. Just dont talk to them for a while. You might realize how much you actually miss them.

Take it from somebody who knew..Hehehe :p

There is something in my mind lately. There was this girl who always giving me this weird look whenever we passed into each other. Those kinda look that says "i have a problem with you, so im going to act like i ignore you". If so, i think she should try to act better. I dont give a shit anymore. I had a long talk with Ambreen the other day about how most girls bitch about each other. People talk, and they always will. (When i say people,i mean girls coz guys have better things to do other than bitching.) The problem is when, those people used to be your friends. Its weird when you suddenly without any solid reason get those one of those evil looks. Maybe she was trying to make a statement. But why? Im sure as hell never talk bad about her before. In fact, i used to kinda like her. So,u know what..nevermind.. its fine. Dont ever think that just because you thought you have gone through some "shit", you’re much stronger and wiser. The truth is, you grew up when u learn to let go of things. Dont over analyze. What u heard, or read may not be about you.

Hahaha..saje je suka tulis yg emo2..sensasi sket..tp takde pape pun sbnrnye