My world: The Cherryblossom Garden

This vampire thingy is probably just a phase. It was Runiz’s idea for us to be ‘The Vamps’. Because I love her so much and the fact that i have so much time with nothing to do,the freaky crazy idea does not seem so bad. You see, I never like anything scary. Ghosts,cold blooded murder, wars and even prison makes me feel nausea. My gothic-dark-macabre friendster layout only lasts a day. The only reason why im keeping the primary photo display is because i think that girl is cute and her make-up is awesome. You see, i told you right i only see gothic as a fashion statement. Its cool if u’re a trend-setter though. It separates you with the whole robotic mainstream fashion world.

**PEACE**

To runiz: You’re by far still the cutest freaky-vampire-weirdo i know. Hugs and kisses,bitch!

I spend my day doing some deep thinking after watching re-run of my favourite F.R.I.E.N.D.S episodes. God knows how many times have i watched the series. I could almost memorize every dialogue. It never bore me. Through their hapless romances, hundred renditions of Phoebe’s smelly cat and seasons of Rachel’s gorgeous haircuts. They really have chemistry, u know. The one we dont find in labs. How six wannabes become have-it-alls and best buds. I hope those kind of friendship are not just for TV. Sob sob..Hehe

Anyways, this is for my lovely bestfriends..To the good and bad,laughter and tears. Lets be there for each other.

To S**Ls a.k.a Papaddums a.k.s The VamPs or whatever..I kinda lost track already: Runiz,Fateem,Dayah,Nino,Kay

Sara,peeps,Jaja,Basy and all our extensions. Cheers.

Ok. The holiday had been fun so far. Had plenty of rest (err..in fact a bit too much). I went to Mersing last week with my friends. Its been a while since my last camping trip. So, i was really looking forward to this one. Too bad nino and runiz did not join us. It would have been a blast if they come along.

Anyways, i decided to change my friendster layout again. The old one seemed too plain and cheeky. Not that i dont love being cheeky, cuz i do sooo much..hehe..Its just time for change. And this time, its a lil bit extreme. I guess for those who know me will probably say that it is not me at all. Yup..hell yeah. I changed the theme from ‘I love YAMAPI and AKANISHI to death’ to ‘I HATE LIFE and WANT to DIE’. This time, it does not have anything to do with my emotional state of being. Im not EMO, im just god damn bored. I dont have anything interesting to do. Cant go shopping cuz im broke, cannot go rock climbing cuz all my girl-friends are not here in Gombak (Yup..i decided to give rock climbing another shot..yea he!)..basically i cannot do anything that cost more that rm10. That means, its nothing out of the house. Argghhh..my life is so pathetic.

Hmm..thats how all this gothic thing come about. Hahha…personally, i know gothic from music. My chemical romance and Amy Lee are pretty cool to me. I dont dig malaysian gothic though. They seem a bit lost .No offense. But maybe only those which i’ve seen with my very own eyes. From my views, gothic is just a look. A way for youngsters to show their feeling of sadness and depression. Other than fashion. i dont see Gothic or Goth as fitting an exact good or evil scenario as it’s intent. The person places the association with it, or makes it look bad or good themselves. Most of them just wanted to belong to some kind of ’subculture’. Thats all. However, it can also be about being an individual, more opened than a robotic mainstream. Hmm..err..have i been blabbing about useless things again? heheh..err..sorry. My point iis actually i know gothic mostly from music. Mikey and Gerard from MCR are the hottest goth i know..hehe..agree?? I put their song I dont love you as my background. Enjoy.

I cannot believe i just did it..stupid useless regret would never turn back time..i told myself millions of time not to do it but it seems i have no self control at all. Im writing this to remind myself the stupid mistake i made and if i ever do or think of doing it again, i’ll the most brainless dumbass fugly human being on earth..ok??

To him who matters,
Oitt..ok2..you win. You’re right bout me having no self control, never stick to my decision and a lil bit spoiled. This year is definitely one of the best raya for me. thanks..and oh yeah i watched it on youtube. They are so not like us..never..hahaha

Eh wait..this is my 100th blog entry..Wow!! just realized it. Sugoi..Oh btw, if anybody wondering what the hell am i writing about..its actually im betting no to eat more than 2 biji kuih raya yg manis, any ketupat or rendang or any other raya food since…u know…but i cannot help it when my stupid sister brought back from terengganu so many kuih raya and tapai…Arggghh..so i lost the bet. Im hating myself right now…seriously i am..im also hating those delicious raya food..and also my sister cause bringing so many food home…I HATE RAYA and its DELICIOUS FOOD..i hate food in general cause it taste good….Well,we have a love and hate relationship. But now,totally hate..

The Rules:
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve tagged, and to read your blog.

1. My earliest memory is of when my mum used to read to me everytime before going to bed. Once,we cant find a book so she read me a dictionary. Seriously.

2. My spelling is dreadful. Honestly, if it wasn’t for microsoft word built in spell checker i would be lost.

3. I don’t drive unless i really have to. The roads are just too damn scary. Getting my drivers license is one the thing im most proud of. Its more like conquering the fear rather than actually permitted to drive a car. Yup. My life is not extreme at all. Small stuff scares me.

4. I don’t like talking on the phone unless I have to.

5.I hardly ever watch TV anymore - I’m pretty much exclusively devoted to watching Japanese bangumi and other stuff downloaded from the net, as long as it is Japanese. I dont think its normal. Is it?

6. I don’t use Facebook. I have a profile, and a couple of friends added, but I just refuse to use the site. I also have a MySpace, but that lonley page would be lucky to get check every four or six months.It’s honestly too tiring.

7. I like to think that i can play musical instruments, but i can’t.

8.Im an acrophobia and didnt realize it until i was 20.

And now i have to tag people is it. Hmm..ok. Here goes.

Una

Najmi

Faizberry

Fateem

Runiz

Azimin

Basyirah

Najwa aka nan

     Yo! Minna Genki?? Hope everybody is fine. I dont blog that much lately. Couldnt find the time. I’ve been busy with classes and well..enjoying life. Is it just me or the blogging party is not as fun as it used to be?..Anyways, my life has been pretty much the usual. Never-ending classes and assignments, except that this last few weeks i got to spend some time with some of my old friends, YUS!! and McLA!!. Hehe..I cant believe me and YUS still laugh at the same stupid jokes we made 10 years ago. Seriously, thats all we do if we are together. Make stupid jokes,laugh the hell out of it and talk some more about the past. My childhood is pretty amazing, if thought about it. I dont have much trouble with school and making friends was such an ease. Not that I have trouble making friends now, its just people seem to be getting more complicated as they get older. There’ll always be issues like ‘dont get too close,their girlfriends will get jealous’, or are you sure you guys are just friends,it doesnt look like it’ or it could be ‘i hate that girl,so all my friends must hate her as well’. Hahha..seriously, stuff like that does not only happen in chick flicks cheerleader hollywood movies. Trust me.

     When talking about my past, I dont think there was any sweet memories of my primary school years that did not involve YUS in it. We did so many crazy stuff together. And when i say crazy, sometimes it involves her getting dared by me. Err..is there such a word, DARED??  well, what i mean is DARE as in past tense. It would be DARED la kan?? Haha..Anyways,she was that kind of girl who cannot stand being dared. She’ll do the dare for sure. So thats when all the crazy stuff starts to happen. I wanted to tell the rest of the story, but she would kill me if i do it here, so lets just settle with the crazy stuff involved fooling around with some boys in our school. Haha..But thats all in the very long-gone past la. The current YUS is quite different but not in terms of the craziness, she is still as crazy as i can remember. Well, at least I know there is still someone in the world who is less sane then me. Haha..That will always be her, FOR SURE!

     Hmm..What else? Seriously thats not much to tell although i havent blogged in a while. Didnt i used to blog everyday? What the hell that i write? I guess its bacause everything is A-OK right now. No dramas, no skits, and no shits. Hahah. I know better then to get myself into another mess or sinetron that is so lame and laugh-able. (Err..please excuse my english. Its getting worst by day) . Hey, wait a minute..The last cat-fight that i got myself into was about a year ago. Hahaha..Its been a year and I seem to be getting better at avoiding conflict. Wow..impressive. Maybe because i dont go look for trouble anymore. Im trying my best to stay the hell away from it. Even if it means the possibility of losing a friend or two, i wouldnt mind. I used to think that every broken friendship can be mend, every broken heart can be put back into one. But now i know, sometimes you might have tried to hard when you should’ve let go. Maybe the reason why it is so hard is because it wasnt meant to be. No matter how much you want it, or hoping things will go your way, it wouldnt be if it isnt meant to be. As simple as that.

P/S: Ohh..i forgot..i have a request from a friend to have his name in my blog in BOLD letters. Turns out, i forgot about it until the very last minute. Anyways, here it goes.

DIN!! (ko nak nama je kan?? takde cakap nak cite pape pun kan? ok la ni eh?? nama ko je tetiba..bold lak tu..hahah :p)

I got an sms from Peeps today. It says "Years come and go..but today is a special day 2007200. Double Match. It happens only once in a lifetime. So, i wish a very wonderful day".

Hmm..ironically,today seems like a damn stupid shit day for me. Nothing bad really happened. Just im in a horrible mood since last night. I cant think of a reason,though. I avoid talking to people (which is something i rarely do). Everything is god damn annoying. Playing with my tortoise didnt help. Suddenly it felt like they’re the most boring creature ever. They didnt react much. Hmm..just sitting on top of each other doing nothing. Not moving at all. Ohh and they do that a lot. Climbing on to each other and just stay there. Whats the purpose of that,seriously??

Yesterday, i talked to runiz about something i’ve been trying hard to keep to myself for so long. I dont know why it blurted out. It such a bad idea. But i guess, im lucky its Runiz. I prefer her than anybody else to listen to my stupid pathetic story. Feel like such a loser. Huuhh..

I pray to god everyday to keep me sane. Take away all the unhappiness and sadness. But i guess, its impossible to be that lucky huh?? No matter how hard i tried to suppress those feelings, somehow it’ll always find its way to be at the surface of my thoughts again. Maybe it got tools..genetically modified tools.

Hmm..I am trying this free thinking writing skill i learned from EAP mass lecture yesterday. Apparently you must write whatever thats on your mind. It must be continuous. Non stop. I thought i give it a shot. Turns out, i discover that underneath my smile and laughter there are more than one million tears waiting to come out. But it wont, i wont let it come out. Never. Why? because i have no solid reason to be sad. My problem is so tiny,it is not even certify to be call a ‘problem’. Its nothing to do with poverty, world hunger,wars, nothing involving drugs or pre-marital sex or whatever shit that is cerified enough to be called problems. Then, why am i so sad about it? Arghh..god damn it!!

By the way,im still trying this free writing skill. So bare with me. If u cant, just stop reading Ok??..enough with this feeling stuff lets get serious. Hmm..what should i write on my term paper? Any hot issues or stories??..How on earth should i know? i dont read newspapers. I dont know about wars or accidents or deaths or hurricanes or whatever happens out there. Sometimes, ignorance is bliss. Ok,its shallow but whatever. I’ll read it when im older, when my opinion matters to people. Right now,i choose not to bother. What difference does it make??

Hmm..what else? Cute guys..Err..nope..i have no interest in any cute guys right now. Next..Hmm..ok,there’s that thought about my small tiny problem again..So..i guess i should stop this free writing skill. Hmm..any particular format to stop? ii dont think i listen well in the lecture. I was busy passing notes with runiz. Maybe i should just stop. Ok. Done. Pheww..

Conclusion: My first attemp in free writing is a total failure. Stupid useless thoughts.

Im feeling good although I’ve done nothing today.  Didn’t precisely get enough sleep because I woke up at 6:30am for no bloody reason, but I think my lazing about, and half-nap state most of the afternoon have made up for it. I was surfing the net all day. Reaserching, reading forums and recommendation about any interesting jdorama and new songs to download. Oh, for those of you who doesnt know. Jdorama means Japanese drama. So whenever u come across jdrama,jpop, jrock,etc..it simply means japanese. Wakarimasu ka? Hehe. Lately, ive been obsessed with downloading j stuff from torrent. Well, there’s nothing much to do when you’re broke and as lazy as me. So,the internet is a heavenly gateaway. I want to download as many dramas possible before class starts next week. So far, i think i did pretty well. Thanks to streamyx and my new modem, i’ve managed to download the whole episodes of Hana Kimi, Proposal Daisakusen, Nana the movie, Liar Game, Hanayome to Papa, Tokkyu Tanaka, Ganbatte Ikimasshoi and Nodame Cantabille. I have not even finish watching dramas i have from before, (Kurosagi, Gachibaka,Gokusen 2). Thats why i cannot delete anything and my 160Gb hard disk is almost full. Huhuh. Hmm..Well, i have nothing much to write its just that i feel like i havent been blogging properly for so long so i need to catch up. Hahha..I ‘ll see u soon ok.

Hoittt!!.. Well,first and foremost without anybody asking..Just wanna let you guys know that im fine. Hehe. Ogenki Desu. Im good. The short semester seems very short. I took biophysics and GEN. I learned my lesson very well not to take 2 core subjects on the short semester. Well, im glad im almost done with the 3rd uni year. 1 1/2 year to go and im hoping to enjoy every second of it. HHOOOKAY??

YOROSHIKU ONEGAISHIMASU..

JA’