My world: The Cherryblossom Garden

Yea!! Im done with EIT. I have less than a week to re-engergize all my senses before being tortured for one last final semester in UIA. Couldn’t believe im almost done with my degree. But Its about time. "Dah 4 tahun kat main campus GOMBAK yg kucintai". It will be sad to leave all my friends and that olympic size swimming pool but life needs to go on. It may not be the end, It may be the beginning of something beautiful. Mana tau kan? Hehe..I’ll keep my fingers crossed.

This new semester i bet it’ll be different a little, if not a lot. I want to study all the hell out. Why?? Whats the difference this new semester dgn semester lain?? As this would be my final semester (Insyaallah..), its my only chance to shine and when im done shining,I dont want to do any of this biotech-engineering-research shit. Seriously,its not for me. Maybe it never is. Its me who keep denying it and always push as hard as i could. At the end,it gets really tiring and all you wanna do is puke. But there’s no use regretting. All i can do is hoping i wont make any wrong choices later in life. Like i did now…

I predict it will be a blast seeing all my friends after 2 and half months. I miss them dearly. Even some of my ‘casual’ friends that were never that close. People say absence make heart grows fonder. But absence could also make friendship fades away. And it did happen to me, a couple of times actually. Even best friends have come and gone for all sorts of reason, but the wishfulness remains. I can never look back without regret. When you let go of a friendship, you lose pieces of yourself; chunks of memories, slivers of happier time. And of course there are feelings of abandonment, of grief like no other. You may think its weird but sometimes friendships women form are special and it can be pretty frightening to realize the depth of feeling you can have for a close friend. We’ve spent hours laughing at the silliest jokes, I helped her get over ex-boyfriend and she’s been supporting me through so many crisis. Then suddenly, she ditched me and I finally know what hell feels like. But then again, she also said that we cant have everything we want. Maybe to have both that dreamy new boyfriend and to keep this friendship is impossible after all. Friendship can come and go. It also can bounce back. Who knows…

This entry was posted on Tuesday, July 1st, 2008 at 3:38 pm and is filed under Uncategorized. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.