My world: The Cherryblossom Garden

Today is not a good day. Im having it real bad. Forget the details of why im like this and just trust me. Today, i woke up at noon,feeling dizzy and damn hungry. Took a bath,which somehow makes me feel presurred..(??). Brushing my teeth and combing my hair suddenly feels way too complicated. I’ve taken 11 hour nap i still feel like crap. Yet,i have to do my FYP report. It felt like i’ve done 85 things and accomplished nothing. How bad is that?? If i have the money, i’ll definetely overhoul my wardrobe or maybe migrate to Tokyo.

I need my sanity back. but how? I need it before midnight because there is a 56 pages report waiting to be done (or at least started..)

Maybe i need an emotional makeover. See whats really behind my grumpiness

1. I’ll start with something to make me let loose and get some endorphins. Hmm..maybe watching a romantic comedy. Ok..13 going on 30. set!

2. Next. Maybe i have the problem of having to prove myself every single time. Im a staunch believer in constant control. Hmm..no wonder i always feel exhausted. So,i need to stop proving myself. Accept other people’s opinions even if they contradict mine. For once, i should sit back and learn to say never mind. Avoid stress caused by unnesessary confrontations. hmm..ok..good one.

3. Do more of what im good at. (Not my friends..) When im stressed out i always do something i like. Hobbies definetely keeping me sane. This is definetely the main cause of my stress. Im spending way to much time doing my friends’s hobbies, instead of mine. Everytime im doing it, i had fun. Enjoying every second of hanging out. But, in my circle of good friends,they dont think the way i do. Their priorities are way different than mine. They had fun doing what we did but I’ll always have this feeling of guilty pleasure. I cannot bare to hang out until late night talking about rock climbing or mountain climbing when im having 3 quizzes tomorrow and assignments to finish. I dont dare to jeopardise my gpa for that kind of fun. Not that they’re not good people,they really are. Just that.we have different priorities. Maybe its me who tags along everytime. Ok,that can be adjusted. No problem

Wow..suddenly i feel relieved.So,that was the thing that makes me feel like shit. Those guilty pleasures. Hmm..ok,solved!

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