My world: The Cherryblossom Garden

Today is not a good day. Im having it real bad. Forget the details of why im like this and just trust me. Today, i woke up at noon,feeling dizzy and damn hungry. Took a bath,which somehow makes me feel presurred..(??). Brushing my teeth and combing my hair suddenly feels way too complicated. I’ve taken 11 hour nap i still feel like crap. Yet,i have to do my FYP report. It felt like i’ve done 85 things and accomplished nothing. How bad is that?? If i have the money, i’ll definetely overhoul my wardrobe or maybe migrate to Tokyo.

I need my sanity back. but how? I need it before midnight because there is a 56 pages report waiting to be done (or at least started..)

Maybe i need an emotional makeover. See whats really behind my grumpiness

1. I’ll start with something to make me let loose and get some endorphins. Hmm..maybe watching a romantic comedy. Ok..13 going on 30. set!

2. Next. Maybe i have the problem of having to prove myself every single time. Im a staunch believer in constant control. Hmm..no wonder i always feel exhausted. So,i need to stop proving myself. Accept other people’s opinions even if they contradict mine. For once, i should sit back and learn to say never mind. Avoid stress caused by unnesessary confrontations. hmm..ok..good one.

3. Do more of what im good at. (Not my friends..) When im stressed out i always do something i like. Hobbies definetely keeping me sane. This is definetely the main cause of my stress. Im spending way to much time doing my friends’s hobbies, instead of mine. Everytime im doing it, i had fun. Enjoying every second of hanging out. But, in my circle of good friends,they dont think the way i do. Their priorities are way different than mine. They had fun doing what we did but I’ll always have this feeling of guilty pleasure. I cannot bare to hang out until late night talking about rock climbing or mountain climbing when im having 3 quizzes tomorrow and assignments to finish. I dont dare to jeopardise my gpa for that kind of fun. Not that they’re not good people,they really are. Just that.we have different priorities. Maybe its me who tags along everytime. Ok,that can be adjusted. No problem

Wow..suddenly i feel relieved.So,that was the thing that makes me feel like shit. Those guilty pleasures. Hmm..ok,solved!

Hey people. Hows life? I hope yours is better than mine. The new semester has already entered its third week. The first two weeks were a bit blur. I dont remember paying much attention in class but i do remember playing outside until the break of down for almost everyday. Hahah..yup..I am a bit wild sometimes. Nino had to went back to Sarawak for a while.  Im sure as hell will miss her until she come back. Really hoping she will. Sob sob.

Anyways, Im back on track now. Im catching up in class and already started on my final year project (FYP) research. The topic itself is somewhat challenging. "STUDY OF TRANSCRIPTION FOR EURYCOMANONE FROM EURYCOMA LONGIFOLIA".wait..did i say ’somewhat challenging’?? what an obvious lie. It is sure as hell challenging. I can already forseen the long hours of lab work and all those weekend im going to stay in campus. But i hope its going to be worth it. Damn hoping it will..Huuhh..!!