My world: The Cherryblossom Garden

As we grow up..

We learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will.

You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time.

You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You’ll fight with your best friend.

You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did.

You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back.

I talked to Aiman last night and he said the exam result will be out next monday. Im pretty much ready for a mood swing-PMS-like mode. Damn,i wanna score this time. Really do. Have been putting  lots of effort and time into my studies. Sure hoping it paid of. If not, somebody shoot me please. I wanna hibernate for a while. and be ready for FYP (final year project) this new semester. Still cannot believe Im almost a final year student in college. Graduating soon,bebeh. Oh yeah..YEEEE HAAAA!!! !@#$%^* GO TO HELL! @#$%

This vampire thingy is probably just a phase. It was Runiz’s idea for us to be ‘The Vamps’. Because I love her so much and the fact that i have so much time with nothing to do,the freaky crazy idea does not seem so bad. You see, I never like anything scary. Ghosts,cold blooded murder, wars and even prison makes me feel nausea. My gothic-dark-macabre friendster layout only lasts a day. The only reason why im keeping the primary photo display is because i think that girl is cute and her make-up is awesome. You see, i told you right i only see gothic as a fashion statement. Its cool if u’re a trend-setter though. It separates you with the whole robotic mainstream fashion world.

**PEACE**

To runiz: You’re by far still the cutest freaky-vampire-weirdo i know. Hugs and kisses,bitch!

I spend my day doing some deep thinking after watching re-run of my favourite F.R.I.E.N.D.S episodes. God knows how many times have i watched the series. I could almost memorize every dialogue. It never bore me. Through their hapless romances, hundred renditions of Phoebe’s smelly cat and seasons of Rachel’s gorgeous haircuts. They really have chemistry, u know. The one we dont find in labs. How six wannabes become have-it-alls and best buds. I hope those kind of friendship are not just for TV. Sob sob..Hehe

Anyways, this is for my lovely bestfriends..To the good and bad,laughter and tears. Lets be there for each other.

To S**Ls a.k.a Papaddums a.k.s The VamPs or whatever..I kinda lost track already: Runiz,Fateem,Dayah,Nino,Kay

Sara,peeps,Jaja,Basy and all our extensions. Cheers.

Ok. The holiday had been fun so far. Had plenty of rest (err..in fact a bit too much). I went to Mersing last week with my friends. Its been a while since my last camping trip. So, i was really looking forward to this one. Too bad nino and runiz did not join us. It would have been a blast if they come along.

Anyways, i decided to change my friendster layout again. The old one seemed too plain and cheeky. Not that i dont love being cheeky, cuz i do sooo much..hehe..Its just time for change. And this time, its a lil bit extreme. I guess for those who know me will probably say that it is not me at all. Yup..hell yeah. I changed the theme from ‘I love YAMAPI and AKANISHI to death’ to ‘I HATE LIFE and WANT to DIE’. This time, it does not have anything to do with my emotional state of being. Im not EMO, im just god damn bored. I dont have anything interesting to do. Cant go shopping cuz im broke, cannot go rock climbing cuz all my girl-friends are not here in Gombak (Yup..i decided to give rock climbing another shot..yea he!)..basically i cannot do anything that cost more that rm10. That means, its nothing out of the house. Argghhh..my life is so pathetic.

Hmm..thats how all this gothic thing come about. Hahha…personally, i know gothic from music. My chemical romance and Amy Lee are pretty cool to me. I dont dig malaysian gothic though. They seem a bit lost .No offense. But maybe only those which i’ve seen with my very own eyes. From my views, gothic is just a look. A way for youngsters to show their feeling of sadness and depression. Other than fashion. i dont see Gothic or Goth as fitting an exact good or evil scenario as it’s intent. The person places the association with it, or makes it look bad or good themselves. Most of them just wanted to belong to some kind of ’subculture’. Thats all. However, it can also be about being an individual, more opened than a robotic mainstream. Hmm..err..have i been blabbing about useless things again? heheh..err..sorry. My point iis actually i know gothic mostly from music. Mikey and Gerard from MCR are the hottest goth i know..hehe..agree?? I put their song I dont love you as my background. Enjoy.