My world: The Cherryblossom Garden

I decide not to go home again this weekend. Just so i can pay a bit more attention to my studies. I actually miss studying hard,concentrating. Havent had that in a long time. Is it normal? For a 3rd year engineering student?? Huhuh..but once again, i failed miserably. I didnt even manage to finish even 1 page of chapter 6-transport phenomena. Huhuhuh..Lepaking is actually contagious and addictive. I did absolutely nothing. Simply lepaking,gossipping and having fun with my friends. Sedihnye..rasa cam sangat malas,useless n hopeless…Oh yup and moneyless too.

Life sucks! 

My last entry make me think of something else. How i must have already let go a lot of things to be where I am right now. People messed up all the time. Sometimes, you get hurt and some other times, intentionally or not..You are the one who hurt people. Things like that happen. And worst, if those things happen between you and those people close to your heart. Well, remember we are human being. We have our ups and downs. We have emotions and of coz uncontrollable hormones. The best thing to do is forgive,and let go. I hate to admit this but I think a guy had thought me this. Unintentionally maybe. LET GO !! Stop over reacting and over analyzing. If you think, you cant stand a person GET SOME DISTANCE & SPACE..Cool down. You might just get up one day, realizing you dont hate that person anymore. There’s still some friendship to build. Or else, if u act otherwise..u might lost it..forever! So, people…stop cutting of friends. Just dont talk to them for a while. You might realize how much you actually miss them.

Take it from somebody who knew..Hehehe :p

There is something in my mind lately. There was this girl who always giving me this weird look whenever we passed into each other. Those kinda look that says "i have a problem with you, so im going to act like i ignore you". If so, i think she should try to act better. I dont give a shit anymore. I had a long talk with Ambreen the other day about how most girls bitch about each other. People talk, and they always will. (When i say people,i mean girls coz guys have better things to do other than bitching.) The problem is when, those people used to be your friends. Its weird when you suddenly without any solid reason get those one of those evil looks. Maybe she was trying to make a statement. But why? Im sure as hell never talk bad about her before. In fact, i used to kinda like her. So,u know what..nevermind.. its fine. Dont ever think that just because you thought you have gone through some "shit", you’re much stronger and wiser. The truth is, you grew up when u learn to let go of things. Dont over analyze. What u heard, or read may not be about you.

Hahaha..saje je suka tulis yg emo2..sensasi sket..tp takde pape pun sbnrnye

    How could i possibly be like this?? This semester, i really couldnt remember the last time i really wanted to come to class and learn. I only come to parenting class three times, i deserved a warning letter for Biochem, I didnt go to any transport tutorial, most of my midterm sucks and please dont make me mention the quizzes. Huhuh..a teeny-tiny extremely small part of me,couldnt care less but being me, i knew i was never that ‘carefree’. I still have about 1 month before the finals. I might catch up. Insyallah..
      Other than being super malas, my life gone has pretty well. Err..Hahaha..People say college is the best time of your life. I think its true. Im having the best time getting to know people, doing crazy-stupid things, hanging around with my friends, going places, and the most important thing is getting to know myself. Knowing what i want to do with my life, learning from every lil shit that ever happen to me and getting ready for the next phase of my life, ADULTHOOD. Im in much better state of mind right now. No regrets.