By Jewel

Please don’t say I love you,
those words touch me much too deeply
and they make my core tremble
Don’t think you realize the power you have over me
And please don’t come so close
It just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don’t kiss me so sweet
it makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow
And please don’t touch me like that
makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow
Please don’t look at me like that
it just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don’t send me flowers
they only whisper the sweet things you’d say
Don’t try to understand me
your hands already know too much anyway
It just makes me want to make you near me always
And when you look in my eyes
please know my heart is in your hands
It’s nothing that I understand, but when in your arms
you have complete power over me
So be gentle if you please, ’cause
Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth
And it makes me want to make you near me always
I want to be near you always
I want to be near you always
I want to be near you always

I knew K.Fed (Britney’s ex-hubby) is a singer, but i never heard any of his songs..until today.His video, Lose control came out on channel V. Ooh my god. As a hip hop fan,I must say..Hhahahaha..damn,YOU SUCK!! His lyrics sound something like this.."Don’t hate me ‘cuz I’m a superstar and I married a superstar.Never come between us no matter who you are" ..Haha..really?? Compared to him, Paris Hilton doesnt sound so bad. Seriously dude,his debut CD might sell ‘a hundred, maybe a thousand’ copies if he was lucky. Wutever..

P/s: Kay,nama awak cam name dia la..Kay Federer=KayFed..Eiii..camne nih???

Another normal day of nothing much to do,sooo relaxing. I rather stay home. My skin is getting darker and darker by day,mengelupas lak tu. Huwarghh..hopefully,it’ll be ok before college starts. I woke up kinda early, (9am is consider early when it is holidays) my mum and sis probably did some grocery shopping,so im all alone. I fed my goldfish and change the water. I noticed he (or she..i dun know..) got white spots all over him. God,its scary for a while so i searched the net for explanation. It turns out that white spots all over the fish’s body means an infection from parasites. Poor Lou. So i went out, go to the pet shop and bought him an anti fungus tabs that cost me rm13. Hishh..mahal la plak ubat ikan ni. That pet shop is quite huge,with many kinds of pet. Snakes,tarantula,iguana and even small monkeys which is so adorable. I played a lil bit with the kittens and chatted with the shopkeeper. His friendly and obviously knows a lot about the animals, hmm..very interesting. I end up buying a blue siamese fighting fish,or in malay ikan laga la..hahah.Yea..loovvve it. Such a beatiful creature. This time,im pretty sure its a male..hehe

Hmm..next,what else is there for me to do?? I chat with Jaja on Yahoo Messenger while reading Sophie Kinsella’s Undomestic Goddess. The book is a bit boring in the beginning so i stopped and surf the net. Did some quizzes at blogthings.com. You know what,i better go nap. Maybe it’ll get less boring. Ciow !!

Its been a whiIe since i blog. Kinda miss blooging. Hehe. A friend of mine called today and asked why she wasnt invited to my open house this year. She and a few others actually..sadly there wasnt time. The stupid examinations took half of the raya. My last paper was on the 15th and on the 16th, I went to Pangkor. So,this year’s raya was actually very short for me. I went to less the 3 open houses.Huhu..how sad.

The examinations wasnt that good either. I can only count on economics and UNGS…and none from the core subjects. Im screwed.haha.. But what done is done, i just hope its good enough to maintain my pointer. I’ll be a 3rd year student starting next semester. One more year,and I’ll be out. Hard to believe. Time flies so fast. Everybody has started talking about their final year projects, applying for EIT and stuff. Huhhh..deep breath!

Anyways,enough about those depressing things. The good thing is, I have about less than 2 weeks to enjoy whats left of this holiday. Next week, we’re going to Cameron Highland. Cant wait. I miss Adam so much, havent seen him since raya. The rest of the family will also be there. Ohh i almost forgot. That trip to Pangkor turn out to be a lot of fun. Honestly,i wasnt really eager to go at first. Nino cancelled on the trip because a cousin was getting married and Ruru,refuse to go at the very last minute. So,Its just me and Dayah. Im glad Haryani,Jaja and Basy were going also. We started our journey by bus to Lumut, arrived at Lumut Jetty about 4 hours later. It was 5 am when we got there. The ferry to Pulau Pangkor was at 9am so we had breakfast and exercise a bit before boarding. I was a bit nervous. The last time I went on a ferry, i got sick and threw up. I slept all the way through, but i think it only took about 30-40 minutes. I woke up feeling fine, maybe the sea condition is not as rough. Good. Overall, I enjoy the trip. Laughed a lot, met cool people and had fun. Although i wish Nino and Ruru could join us. Hahah..maybe next time.

I didnt even know when the result is coming out. Couldnt care less. Haha..Well, maybe I care a lil bit..Hey,u know what..I care a lot…Huwargghhh..terrified..FLUID !!! TiDAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK…

p/s: Hahha..by the way,the title has nothing to do with the entry. Its my gold fish’s name. I had no idea what to name the entry..heheh

I was never one to patiently
pick up broken fragments and
glue them together again and
tell myself that the mended
whole was as good as new.
What is broken is broken — and
I’d rather remember it as it was
at its best than mend it and see
the broken pieces as long as I lived.