My world: The Cherryblossom Garden

Heyya..im so in a good mood today. For sahur,Nino cooked us a meal that taste OK but look very odd. Ikan bilis goreng and scrambled egg. Trust me,it looked weird. I dunno why. Hahaha. Anyways,u guys know what..a good friend talked to me a few days ago about a problem she had. She’s so scared to admit that she had a crush on this guy at college. They sms a lot, have a good conversation and i had a feeling that they occasionally flirt a lil bit. Haha. I’ve met him more than twice and i agree, he’s very sweet, nice and all that but my friend is so scared to admit (to herself) that she have a crush on him because she dont want to get hurt. Haha..im no expert but i always love having a crush myself. I’ve blog about my crush once,quite long ago. Well, i guess here’s what u do if u dont wanna get hurt and at the same time enjoy having the crush..I think its important to connect with him and enjoy the flirt without expecting anything more. Find out if he is free or not. (In my friend’s case,yup! hes free…yea!). This will tell you exactly where he stands. Err..Ruru,im afraid this is not applicable to you :-). Instead of focusing on a long term relationship with him, simply stay on the flirty game. At the same time, make sure you keep your options open and dont reject any potential guys. (heheh..ehem). This will give you all the tools to stay emotionally free. He’s just a guy! Dont glorify him like a god,girls..!! seriously,some of us do that.. So sad..hehehe

What you guys think? hehe..agree?

I get less and less time to blog nowadays and even when i do have the time, im clueless on what to write. What’s happening,huh? Anyways,last week have been great. Im back on track now and life is getting brighter and brighter each day. Alhamdulillah. I went to watch You, Me and Dupree and Heart last week. Ok,maybe heart was a bit waste of money but i did enjoy it. (Sorry Khalifa and Tem..hahah). The movie was so predictable from the very beginning until the end,i dont like Luna..Argghh..hate her. We had sushi (what else??) and drove back to UIA. Oh by the way,I should practise my driving skill,its time. Hehe..i’ll be staying off campus next year,so better get used to me,driving huh?? ergghh..why cant i afford a driver??

Last saturday, i went rock climbing with the ARCians. Im terrified of heights. Climbing?? so not for me..hhaha..but it was a lof of fun. For me,la. Nino and Dayah had to sacrifice their Wataniah Kawad test. Get to meet a lot of cool people. Seriously,they are super cool. So relieved. You know,for once,i dont have to deal with bookworms and nerds.(hahaha..no offense)

Ohh,and the talk Lutfi and I had was kinda inspirational. Haha. He’s a nice fella..(Nothing personal hah Lutfi!!)

P/S: YUup, this is definitely the most boring entry ever. Haha. So many things to tell but its hard to put it into words..why huh?

A***N

The in and out of dating got me all cofused
I built up expectations and I’m feeling used
Seems that everybody’s into fast food,
Everybody’s into quick
I want some one to take the time fine dining not rushing

Now it’s nearly 7:30, I’m slipping on a dress
I keep my fingers crossed, you’re not like all the rest,
So when you come to pick me up come right to my door
Don’t stay in your car and beep beep the horn

Baby I’m a hopeless romantic
You pick the sounds for the background to our drive into town
Baby don’t be one of the traffic
Had too many nights with the wrong guys
Caught me at red lights

Tell me how many frogs do I have to kiss
Before I find my prince, before I find my prince
All you girls that are going through this
Tell ‘em how it is, tell ‘em how it is

Pull up to a premire, red carpet good
You take my coat, get my chair, like I hoped you would
You’re funny and your flirting is really working for me
But where it goes from here
Better wait and see

Baby I’m a hopeless romantic
You pick the view to kiss to
Make me go ooo ooo
And baby it’ll all turn out tragic
And you’ll push for more
Back at my front door
More than I’m ready for

You gotta tip the waiter, that’s how it works
You cant skip the starter and go straight to desert
You’ve gotta pop the cork before you taste the wine

Tell me how many frogs do I have to kiss
Before I find my prince, before I find my prince
All you girls that are going through this
Tell ‘em how it is, tell ‘em how it is

Standing still but Im moving
Lying down but not resting
Breathing air, suffocating
All the while, I’m debating

Life was never what I thought
Never what I wanted it to be

Had a plan, couldn’t follow
Had a dream, it was hollow
Everywhere felt like nowhere
Everything was so boring

Restless ways for a living
Fitting in ’cause I was driven
Saying yes when I meant no
Holding on, should’ve let go

I was scattered all around
Left shattered on the ground
All I wanted was a little bit of hope
Couldn’t find it

I was hanging out at Nino’s today before going to seminar. Runiz n Tem were already there and they’re discussing about holiday trip. Damn..it got me excited just talking about it. Hahaha..so here are the places that came up:

1) Australia (chances -0.5%) —-> negative chance of happening.

2) Thailand - rumah kufu (chances 40%) —-> realistik la sket drp australia

3) Brunei —-> rejected (Sorry runiz,sume org tanak)

4) Sarawak —-> (chances 60% jadi) —> Sume org nak kecuali Nino

5) Terengganu —-> Candat sotong bulan 3 ni!! Jadi!!! (chances 99.99% jadi) yea yea !!

Cuti-cuti Malaysia dulu baru la pk cuti2 lain ye. Melainkan korang ikut aku pegi Beijing bulan 6 tahun depan…Jom!!

I had UNGS 2050 midterm exam this morning. I think i did OK considering i finish reading the slides at 8.45am and the number of class i missed (Its enough to get me barred from the course actually..). Luckily,the few points that i memorize on the last minutes came out. (Ruru,maybe im not as unlucky as u said i am..hehe). Ruru n Daia went to Gunung Arung last night. I was so frustrated i could not go because of the exam. Sooo looking forward to go on another trip with them. They must be having a good time..sigh!!

Im looping the song Kenangan Terindah by Samsons on my MP3 since this afternoon. There are so many good indonesian band kan? i do listen to a lot of them but never was a big fan. Except for Sheila on 7 maybe. Last week,i spend my weekend at CONVEST. The battle of the band competition really grab my attention. I dont even know we are allowed to perform that kinda music in IIU,but i guess things changed a bit nowadays. Not only we had our own student competing in a band competition, there were perfomances from 6th Sense (its a local band). Im not sure whether they perform or not but Sarah Raisudin and Farhan AF4 were there also. Hmmm.. comment??. Its not that im against all that, just maybe we have to respect the fact that we are in International ISLAMIC environment. Not very ISLAMIC huh?? anyways,although its a bit inappropriate i kinda enjoy the battle of the band competition. The sound system was too loud and sometimes we cannot hear the voice of the vokalist. Some of the band did pretty good though. I didnt get to see all of them performing but i like the band "RASSA" or "RASSIA" im not sure. Its short for RASA INDONESIA. They sang the song KENANGAN TERINDAH by SAMSONS. Loooove that song. Unfortunately,they didnt win. A band called SILICA GEL (i think) won the competition. All in all,they were pretty cool. Then,we went straight to HELIPAD for drifting competition. Hahaha…tiba2 je nak ade bf yg pandai drift. kan kay??? About a week convest was held,i spend rm100 buying nothing but foods & beverages. Hahaha..panas lak tu. Asyik beli air je. Arghhh..seminggu takle topup.

Anyways,its all good. I think my emotional days are over now. I couldnt care less about every shit that had happened to me. I cant stop whatever people wanna say or do to me. They have their principles and i have mine too. So,i’ll just do my own thing, hanging out with my friends. I know they love me as much as i love them.

Credits:

Dayah,Runiz,Pipah,Nita,Akram,Sara,Nino,Tem,Kay,Salwa,Acap,Najmi —-> Thanks for everything. U guys made my day

and of coz ramai je yg lain tapi diorang ni lah yg tahu most of my problems and stick with me all the way through. Thanks again n again n again. GOD BLESS. amin. Dedicate to them and all my friends..

Kenangan Terindah
by Samsons

aku yang lemah tanpamu
aku yang rentan karena
cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
yang mampu menyanjungku

selama mata terbuka
sampai jantung tak berdetak
selama itu pun
aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

darimu, kutemukan hidupku
bagiku, kau lah cinta sejati

bila yang tertulis untukku
adalah yang terbaik untukmu
kan kujadikan kau kenangan
yang terindah dalam hidupku
namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
yang telah terukir abadi
sebagai kenangan yang terindah

D**n, i didnt log in to my friendster account for so long. Proud of my self!..Haha..actually a friend of mine said that im a friendsterholic. Everytime he sees me in GPCL,i’ll be ‘friendstering’.Just to prove him wrong, i didnt log in for quite some time. What i miss the most?? blogging la. But i blog everyday actually,just not online. A lot of things happened to me lately.This semester,most of my class kinda sucks. Except for Dr Farouk’s and Numec class (err..whats the lecturer’s name?? ), i’d have to drag my feet to every class. Oh n yeah,it may sound nothing like me but i ponteng a lot this sem. Thanks to Lutfi,some of them would never be discovered. Heheh.

I virtually met and old friend a couple of weeks ago. He gave me a message on my friendster with the title "Awak ni RAJA ke??" I didnt go by that name since upper form. So i figured,he must be somebody from long time ago. The funny thing is, in his message, he only wrote.."I think i know u,but not so sure. Kalau awak Raja Aishah Raihana,reply back k. Kalau tak,takpe.Sorry kacau". Hahaha..i checked out his profile but had no idea who he is. So i replied and said "Yup,but im sorry i have the hardest time placing you". Hoping he’ll remind me where he knew me from. In reply, he gave me a long message. Turns out, he knew me from kindergarten. He said that, if i cant still remember him by name,i should remember we used to be dancing partners. I swear i dont even remember having a dancing partner in kindergarten..no wait..i dont remember having a dance partner ever!! except for a couple of crazy nights with Runiz and Leha, i dont dance in front random people.Hahaha..anyways,its good to meet an old friend and catch up. Things i really should be doing actually. I havent meet Yus since shes back in KL,Edura,Mcla,Sheila..and the list goes on la.I miss them. Seriously, i do.

That is so in the past. Currently,im struggling with ‘friends’. Maybe because we’re older so things are getting complicated or maybe getting older its not the problem,its just i dealt with problem like a 14 year old. Hmm..i realised im so spoilt when it comes to dealing with ‘friends’. I expect a fairy tale friendship with no taddle-telling,bla bla, friends. From where i stand,i’ll always have pipah if i need an advise or comfort,i’ll always have Runiz n Daia to talk to,Nino&Tem if i need a laugh after a shit day at class, etc. So, thats why i use to have no problem getting too close to people. Little that i know,people always have other personal problems to deal with. They dont give a shit about u,they dont wanna know about your problem,they dont wanna share any of that with u.They dont care that much so dont expect everybody to be like ‘Pipah’. I learned the hard way that getting to close to a person can cause so many award-winning-soap-opera-drama. So i play safe, not to trust people as ‘friends’ so much anymore. Dont get me wrong,friends is still friends. Its just u guys have no idea how much i put my trust on ‘friends’ before all this catastrophe-friendship-event fall on me. Not a normal amount of trust u should be putting on to people..believe me!. This year,i had my heart crushed more than i had my whole life. But people say, hearts get broken all the time,you just gotta deal with it and move on. If me playing safe means ditching friends,im so sorry to make anybody feel that way. It seems that when u talk a lot,u tend to talk about things u shouldnt be talking and when u keep quite,u ditch people because they’ll think u ignore them. I’ve never been scared of anything like the word ‘friends’ are to me now. It seems that when i tried to patch things up it’ll be "trying to hard,u should just let go" shit i heard from somebody some time ago. If i let things go easy and just let it be,i still get the blame because people tend to talk behind your back and they got the facts all wrong. But then again,im not blaming anybody. I dont expect people to know exactly how i felt when maybe im the one who said it wrongly. And when u finally have the courage to get things right, it’ll be too late. Things get awkward and it might not be the same,ever. You’ll end up hurting again.

Damn,im rambling on and on. I think none of u understand this entry huh? i dont expect anyone to read anyways. Just wanna re-state the poind that I miss BloGGing. Haha..no la..that i miss the ability to talk to my friends without worrying they’ll judge,or talk behind your back and twist the fact,or bla bla..but i guess,its just the risk i’d have to take huh?? or i should keep on being this new me??-the lone ranger me- I dont think i will hurt anyone as much. and vice versa. kan?