My world: The Cherryblossom Garden

   Last night,i watched a motivational talk show on tv. Never done that before,so i cant remember the channel. Its good u know,for once not watching channel 70,71,72. Hehehe..Anyways,its about a speech from an inspirational speaker. Errr..his name,im not sure but i think Jack Boland from Michigan. I was so moved by the message that i decided to blog about it. Hehehe..so here goes.

   He said that disappointment is associated with shattered expectations and broken dreams. One can never run away from it, the best way is to learn how to cope and handle them as a positive experience. Okay,easy said than done huh?? Nothing i havent heard before. However, before going to sleep last night my mind keep thinking about what he said. All those things about disappointment and everything. The question is, how the hell am i supposed to ‘handle them as a positive experience’. Hehehe..okay,laugh out loud. This entry is going to be boring for most of you but bare with me.

   In my experience, i have found that disappointments sometimes occur to teach me something so that i may become more wise and strong. Some kind of preparation i would say. I believe in the saying "behind every cloud, there is silver lining". Some events have to occur to make us a better person, hmm..a blessing in disguise.

   I’ve been disappointed a lot with my life lately. But i realize one thing, if we truly wish to move on,we need to understand one fundamental lesson. FORGIVENESS. Until we can forgive and release all the people who hurt us in the past, we will continue to live in our self-imposed prison. Personally for me, forgiveness is probably the hardest lesson to accept and practise. The human side of me, does not understand forgiveness. My reasoning only understand the hurt that others cause me. Naturally,after hurting the response is to hurt back or hate or suffer resentment or mete out revenge. Isnt’ it right? Lets be honest and forget all those im- so-angelic-i-always-forgive shit. When we are hurt, our self righteous self tend to pass judgement on those who hurt us. we condemn them to suffer our anger.

   For once in my life,i really thought that best way to move on is actually to forgive. Err..you see, If we forgive someone immediately after each hurt, we will begin to live a life of freedom. freedom from hate and everything. The person we spend 5 years hating probably wouldnt know we hate them. Our hatred do not give any impact on them. So why bother,right? Just let go of all the anger and hatred for once. Acting melancholy cannot make things right, and depression will only make things worst.

   So,my conclusion is (hehehe,it felt like im a counselor or something ..ngeh ngeh!) beginning today,im going to adopt a totally new attitude - expect nothing from anyone. No one owes me anything in this life. Hmm..if thats the case,there is really nothing to forgive,huh?

Lets get more dramatic with these affirmations (yea..for those who knows me they know im a drama queen..hehe)

I can cope with disappointment. It will teach me new things.

I know that everything will always turn out right for me, and those around me.

I forgive everyone for every hurt directed at me in the past, and send them love and good wishes.

I forgive myself for all of my past failings.

p/s: Hehehe..i really should change my major. Is there any vacancy at psychology department? Hahahhaha

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