This is me, then :-)
Its 12.46am and im still up, in front of my pc. The tv is on,channel 81. Liverpool vs MU. Nobody’s watching though, Intan is already sleeping with the remote control in her hand. hahah…and im too lazy to change to MTV,channel V or Hitz.tv. There’s a lot going on in my head, but i dont know what. A couple of weeks ago, im having the worst emotional breakdown,ever. heheh..ok,im exagerating. But really,that week was hard. Nothing was going my way. I cant concentrate in class, and worst for some reason i do not know what, i tend to avoid bumping to ‘one person’ i always hope to ‘bump’ with..heheh..ok, faham2 je la..But, that was then. Now, everything is back to normal. Class is fun again and everything is fine at home. So glad.
I blog for no reason,just plain bored. I slept for about 3 hours in the afternoon. I woke up, with some thoughts in my head. I tried to recall the dream i just had. Weird because i dont usually have dreams that i remember, except maybe once or twice. In my dream, there were so many people in my house, talking and laughing. Like some kind of get-together or something, i dunno. I remember in my dream, i talked to sheila and Mcla,my roommates in MRSM. Then, there was Nira,my bestfriend when i was in lower form. I cant remember the rest of the dream, cettt..!! Maybe it doesnt mean anything, i just simply miss them. You know, friendship last for as long as u wanted it last, even when u dont see that person for years. When i was in primary school, i remember being fun and happy. At that time, i was very close with Edura. I remember her being smart and pretty. Heheh..We are still in touch until now. When i was in standard 4-6, i spend most of my time with Yus. God..haha,we’re still good friends now,11 years later. she’s in Japan..ok,jealous! She’s one hell of a psycho-weird person. Heheh..miss her so damn much. I still owe her a birthday present by the way. Then, when i was in Hillcrest, I was in this one very fun gang. Hmm..Nira,Neda,By,Linda,Suk,fathin,etc. The school was shit, i hated the environment. I hated the school system, i hated the prefects, the disciplinary board suck and most of the students are…arghhh!..i rather not say. Me and and my gang went for tuition somewhere in KL every weekend. There, i met this guy. His name is Ridwan..kut. I used to have this huge crush on him..Haha..I wonder where he is now?? ngeh ngeh.
My MRSM days are…well..cant describe. I had my ups and down. My happy and sad memories. So many things happen to me there, met so many characters. One way or another, it did made me what i am today. One thing i know i wont regret ever, was agreeing to go there. hmmm..hehe..feels good to take a step back and recall everything that has happened to me.
Oh by the way, its the 83rd minute in the game and they are still 0-0. Wut? im glad i did not watch from the start, what a waste of time..haha..anyways, i remember being 15 and love football. I even bought monthly football magazines, collect stickers and everything. Hmm..at that time i had so many interest and passion in life. Growing up, some of em faded away. Hehe..oh, MU scored! hmm..im hoping for Liverpool to win,but whatever..dont care..hehe!
I dont feel like sleeping today. I wish i was somewhere in Paris or Italy. Argghh..busannye,nak berangan pun i dont what to berangan about. I’ve lost interest in *******, over him. Its not that exciting, looking at him anymore. Hahah..like he cares..I need to find someone interesting enough for me to have a ‘crush’ on. I dont believe in me falling in love right now, but i love the feeling of seeing the person u like from afar. But, when he’s right there in front of u, most of the time i’ll lose interest. Hmm, how the hell am i ever going to be in love,i dunno. Maybe i never will.
Ok,this entry isnt going anywhere. I better stop.
Chiow
January 22nd, 2006 at 11:45 pm
12.46 am smalam?yup MU vs. Liverpool..but i was watching Hercules@Hallmark # (x minat football)