My world: The Cherryblossom Garden

I was watching channel V when i suddenly realize that the singer was so bad that i rather watch sports channel for once. Hated the singer. Hated the song. Hated the video. My cell phone rang. Hated the caller. "Whats up?" she asks. "Oh,nothing. I hate everything about my life right now." I launch into finer detail as i picture her doing the crossword puzzle and reading War and Peace. At the end of my rant, she says, "Well, as long you’re basically happy." This isn’t said in a clever or sarcastic way, a she’s-only-happy-when-she’s-bitching sort of way, but in that not-really-listening kind of way. From what I understand, at some point "As long as you’re basically happy" is the new "Have A Nice Day".

   Ooookay,im just mad today. For no reason. I never thought it is possible for me to hate a person as much as i hate that one person. Argghh..how can a human being be so cruel,cold blooded,self-centered and sellfish all at once? Can you at least share the bad qualities with other people?

   I’m gonna have to do do something that can get my mind of this hatred. The best thing is, do my engin mat’s assignment. After 5 minutes, i realized i didnt have my calculator with me. Did i left it in college? dont think so. That thing supposed to be in my backpack, it is not though. Damn. How am i supposed to do it without a calculator. Never mind, i’ll do a question that does not need calculation. Hmm..i’m trying..still trying..damn it,blank! what did i do in class?? why cant i sketch a simple direction? hmm..relax,im not stupid just plain mad..arggghh..definetely not a time to study. Next..

   Outings. Movie outings would be nice. Yea..!. Ok,so i called Runiz. Sounds like a plan to her. I can also go shopping since i desperately need new shoes, maybe some jeans and skirts (ok,not desperately..but wutever). 10 minutes of happiness suddenly my mum told me i wont get my pocket money until next week. My dad is in Cherating or sumthing. Huh??? what?? hmm..Fine.so i’ve been on a tight-budget this last couple of months,what else is new? Its ok. I’ll survive.

   Ok,back to being bored and mad. Lets listen to music.Loud music wont help anymore. It used to be. Haha..I must’ve grown up. Im looping far away, here by me, here without you, cool, the middle and work. Nice..im smiling again. Music does heal souls,huh? hmm..for one moment maybe. It wont last. I need to talk to..GOD. That’s the only way.

Oh,by the way: Dun worry me,im not crazy. Probably just P**. I’ll be better tomorrow. Hehe

Take care

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