My world: The Cherryblossom Garden

I have microbiology exam on Thursday during class time. I’ve studied most of the chapters,thats what i did the whole day. Yea!..Ohh..but u know,biology is a reading subject so..i fell asleep 3-4 times..haha! I’ll continue reading lecturer’s slide later tonight but right now,im so tired of studying. Need a break. Im watching One Tree Hill, the second season. I’ve seen it on TV before but i missed some of the episodes.I used to watch OTH because of Chad Micheal Murray (who hasn’t aite??) hehe..but after following the episodes, i prefer Nathan. I like him and Haley so much. What a cute couple..seriously. The fact that Haley changed him from a snobbish a**hole to whatever he is now. Imagine,u make that kinda impact on someone’s life..huhuh..Other than Nate and Haley,i also like the character Brooke. Everyone at Tree Hill knows that Brooke is popular, pretty, and
can have any boy she wants. What they don’t know is that sometimes she is
insecure and lonely, and the only boy she really wants is the one who broke her
heart, Lucas. I hated Lucas so much when he cheated on Brooke to be with Peyton, her own best friend. Ok,fine..at the end,he realized his mistakes and wanna get back together but still, what happen to that heart he once crushed. That’s what guys do right? I mean,they usually did something really bad, and then expect when they realize their mistakes,everything will go back to normal. Sometimes it might work but what if its too late? I used to think that the best way to protect your heart is by playing safe. I mean, is it ever worth to trust the person that once broke ur heart? hmm..but u know..come to think about it, hearts get broken all the time. If u want happiness u really have to take your chances,even if it is a risky one. You never know what you might get. Agree? Thats what i think hearts and feelings represent. Sometimes funny,sometimes sad,but above all, always true.

Do other people read this blog? I doubt it. I have nothing to do on a saturday afternoon. What kind of boring life am i leading here? hehe..Naaah,not that bad actually. Its just i dont have much money to spend lately. I’m sooo hoping i’ll get some by next week. I need a new cell phone. Mine, the screen is coming off and the battery..argghhh,lets not mention. I only have another 3 days left before class starts. My Gaa-ga-ronggeng days are over. I have to study my a** off for microb and engine mat exams. The study group that consist of Myself,Fahan n Khair..hmm..well,we did finish our engine mat assignment and i have read 2 1/2 chapters of Microb, so its not that bad considering what’ll happen to me if i study alone. Hmm..nothing. Trust me. The internet is only a click away,the dvd’s are calling,death note chap 3..hmm,and the list goes on. Fahan might do better off alone actually, cuz she’s studying anyways. Khair,errr..let see what he did during our 3-day-studygroup-session. He finished his engine mat assign, twice (the first time,he cannot recall whether he did it in his dream or he actually lost it somewhere),he drew sketches of crazy-demons,he watched One Tree Hill vcd’s and read like one subchapter for microb. No worries,that kinda study-method will get him in a dean’s list spot anyways. The craziest thing happen yesterday. We supposed to start our session before 10, we didnt. hahah. After jumaat prayer, we went to OU. Fahan drove herself to the curve to settle something and Khair, me and Hafiz went to OU’s gsc. Fahan didnt really like to go to cinemas,so..We plan to meet sometime after the movie. The stupid gsc doesnt have enough posters. The screen was showing the up-coming movies and they were like 2-3 posters only. We decide to watch MEAN CREEK. I’ve never heard of it. At first, I thought it is some kind of foreign,independent film or something. There’s nothing else. I didnt watch horror movies and Khair cant stand malay and chinese movies, so we didnt have much choice anyways. Its either mean creek or keeping mum. We choose mean creek because we have no idea what keeping mum’s like. It turns out, Mean Creek was a-non-cinema-so-predictable movie. It is so….err..normal and we spend rm9 for it. Dangg!! After the movie,we met fahan somewhere in Tesco. The IKEA-tesco area was kinda nice. We had our supper at MCD and then went home. Thats how i spent my friday. We didnt accomplished much. Studying,not so much. Movie-sucks. But i had fun. Hehe..what a way to spend the day.

 
Btw, i love the song HERE BY ME from 3DoorsDown.
The title is from that song, AS LONG AS I HAVE..YOU RIGHT HERE BY ME Im looping the song,have no other idea so just put it as a title..hahaha
K,im outta here. Peace and XOXOX

I was watching channel V when i suddenly realize that the singer was so bad that i rather watch sports channel for once. Hated the singer. Hated the song. Hated the video. My cell phone rang. Hated the caller. "Whats up?" she asks. "Oh,nothing. I hate everything about my life right now." I launch into finer detail as i picture her doing the crossword puzzle and reading War and Peace. At the end of my rant, she says, "Well, as long you’re basically happy." This isn’t said in a clever or sarcastic way, a she’s-only-happy-when-she’s-bitching sort of way, but in that not-really-listening kind of way. From what I understand, at some point "As long as you’re basically happy" is the new "Have A Nice Day".

   Ooookay,im just mad today. For no reason. I never thought it is possible for me to hate a person as much as i hate that one person. Argghh..how can a human being be so cruel,cold blooded,self-centered and sellfish all at once? Can you at least share the bad qualities with other people?

   I’m gonna have to do do something that can get my mind of this hatred. The best thing is, do my engin mat’s assignment. After 5 minutes, i realized i didnt have my calculator with me. Did i left it in college? dont think so. That thing supposed to be in my backpack, it is not though. Damn. How am i supposed to do it without a calculator. Never mind, i’ll do a question that does not need calculation. Hmm..i’m trying..still trying..damn it,blank! what did i do in class?? why cant i sketch a simple direction? hmm..relax,im not stupid just plain mad..arggghh..definetely not a time to study. Next..

   Outings. Movie outings would be nice. Yea..!. Ok,so i called Runiz. Sounds like a plan to her. I can also go shopping since i desperately need new shoes, maybe some jeans and skirts (ok,not desperately..but wutever). 10 minutes of happiness suddenly my mum told me i wont get my pocket money until next week. My dad is in Cherating or sumthing. Huh??? what?? hmm..Fine.so i’ve been on a tight-budget this last couple of months,what else is new? Its ok. I’ll survive.

   Ok,back to being bored and mad. Lets listen to music.Loud music wont help anymore. It used to be. Haha..I must’ve grown up. Im looping far away, here by me, here without you, cool, the middle and work. Nice..im smiling again. Music does heal souls,huh? hmm..for one moment maybe. It wont last. I need to talk to..GOD. That’s the only way.

Oh,by the way: Dun worry me,im not crazy. Probably just P**. I’ll be better tomorrow. Hehe

Take care

  Its is fun being at home doing nothing. hehehe. I dont have to wake up at 7.30am, i have internet access 24-7 and i can spend all day relaxing watchind dvd’s. Yeah! .. what a day to spend. But its better if im out,watch movie maraton with runiz. Maybe sometime this week, we’ll do that. Im watching desperate housewives season 1 since last night. Until now, i only manage to finish five episodes. Oh,by the way my back hurt like crazy since this morning. Its hard for me to get up, i will scream in pain if i bend over and the only position i wont feel the pain is by laying down on my back. That was basically what i did all day ( ) im not sure why? maybe because yesterday i had to went up and down the stairs from my room to the car carrying my computer and my 2 week laundry. Haha..come on, im not as lazy as it sounds. Its just i havent got the time to do chores lately, with exams and everything. I have to go back and forth to dayah’s and peep’s room to read notes from the slides because my computer decides not to boot up for a couple of days. I couldnt care less,but this is my 3rd pc in 3 years so i have to take care of this one better than i did with the last 2. hehe. Apparently, there was this virus spreading from our computer lab to some lecturer’s computer and the student’s thumbdrive and into their pc’s, making it slow or something. I’m just worried that has something to do with mine also, fortunately nope. The video card was lose,i think. Phewww..

   OK,back to my story. Err..what story? oohh right, im writing about how relaxed i have been all day long. Hahah..i cannot do much with this pain in my back,so i just stayed in front of the laptop surfing the net for hours. I did like 6-7 quizzes from tickle.com and tons from blogthings.com. Hahaha..one of em was about what’s ur true color. My result was ‘BLACK’. OK,weird but fine. Out of all colors, i have never thought myself as black. Im waiting for the description for black,but its not there. Argg..what about black?? what does black represent? I know blue is calm, red is passionate,yellow is inviting, and so on..but black?? hmm..never mind. I’m not addicted to this kind of online quizzes but when u’re this bored its kinda fun.Haha..last 2 weeks, while studying for linear exams with Peeps and khair, we did this "Do you act your age" quiz. Peeps got 27 (she’s always been like a big sister in our circle of friends,but 27 ?? come on! ) and Khair got 19. Me?? embarassing enough to tell but wuttahell, i got 14. Imagine what it would be like if an actual 27,19 and 14 year old hanging out together.. Haha..Maybe i cheated while taking the test or the test simply not true. Im almost as immature as Khair,so if he gets 19 i have to be at least 18. 14 is as young as..god, i dont even know anybody that young. Haha..but maybe im a kid at heart. Lets take it on the bright side. There’s a whole lot of other interesting quizzes you can try to check out. Just for fun. Sometimes it can be true and it exactly describes who you are. Hmm..i suddently think how interesting studying psychology can be. Errmm,there is this one good friend of my sister. She used to be an engineering student, but in her 2nd year she decides to change to psychology. Lucky for her,she graduates first class. I really hope to further my education right after i finish my degree. My first and only choice would be MBA but maybe it is fun to take psychology as a minor, right? UIA does not have that yet. Engineering student can only minor in economics. Sigh..

   Anyways, not only am i ‘addicted’ to online personality quizzes, im also ‘addicted’ to blogging. There is actually never anything to write but i always ended up blogging everytime i log in to my friendster account. Hmm..hehe

Thats it for now,im gonna continue my DH marathon. L8r`

   Its 12.46am and im still up, in front of my pc. The tv is on,channel 81. Liverpool vs MU. Nobody’s watching though, Intan is already sleeping with the remote control in her hand. hahah…and im too lazy to change to MTV,channel V or Hitz.tv. There’s a lot going on in my head, but i dont know what. A couple of weeks ago, im having the worst emotional breakdown,ever. heheh..ok,im exagerating. But really,that week was hard. Nothing was going my way. I cant concentrate in class, and worst for some reason i do not know what, i tend to avoid bumping to ‘one person’ i always hope to ‘bump’ with..heheh..ok, faham2 je la..But, that was then. Now, everything is back to normal. Class is fun again and everything is fine at home. So glad.

   I blog for no reason,just plain bored. I slept for about 3 hours in the afternoon. I woke up, with some thoughts in my head. I tried to recall the dream i just had. Weird because i dont usually have dreams that i remember, except maybe once or twice. In my dream, there were so many people in my house, talking and laughing. Like some kind of get-together or something, i dunno. I remember in my dream, i talked to sheila and Mcla,my roommates in MRSM. Then, there was Nira,my bestfriend when i was in lower form. I cant remember the rest of the dream, cettt..!! Maybe it doesnt mean anything, i just simply miss them. You know, friendship last for as long as u wanted it last, even when u dont see that person for years. When i was in primary school, i remember being fun and happy. At that time, i was very close with Edura. I remember her being smart and pretty. Heheh..We are still in touch until now. When i was in standard 4-6, i spend most of my time with Yus. God..haha,we’re still good friends now,11 years later. she’s in Japan..ok,jealous! She’s one hell of a psycho-weird person. Heheh..miss her so damn much. I still owe her a birthday present by the way. Then, when i was in Hillcrest, I was in this one very fun gang. Hmm..Nira,Neda,By,Linda,Suk,fathin,etc. The school was shit, i hated the environment. I hated the school system, i hated the prefects, the disciplinary board suck and most of the students are…arghhh!..i rather not say. Me and and my gang went for tuition somewhere in KL every weekend. There, i met this guy. His name is Ridwan..kut. I used to have this huge crush on him..Haha..I wonder where he is now?? ngeh ngeh.

   My MRSM days are…well..cant describe. I had my ups and down. My happy and sad memories. So many things happen to me there, met so many characters. One way or another, it did made me what i am today. One thing i know i wont regret ever, was agreeing to go there. hmmm..hehe..feels good to take a step back and recall everything that has happened to me.

   Oh by the way, its the 83rd minute in the game and they are still 0-0. Wut? im glad i did not watch from the start, what a waste of time..haha..anyways, i remember being 15 and love football. I even bought monthly football magazines, collect stickers and everything. Hmm..at that time i had so many interest and passion in life. Growing up, some of em faded away. Hehe..oh, MU scored! hmm..im hoping for Liverpool to win,but whatever..dont care..hehe!

   I dont feel like sleeping today. I wish i was somewhere in Paris or Italy. Argghh..busannye,nak berangan pun i dont what to berangan about. I’ve lost interest in *******, over him. Its not that exciting, looking at him anymore. Hahah..like he cares..I need to find someone interesting enough for me to have a ‘crush’ on. I dont believe in me falling in love right now, but i love the feeling of seeing the person u like from afar. But, when he’s right there in front of u, most of the time i’ll lose interest. Hmm, how the hell am i ever going to be in love,i dunno. Maybe i never will.

   Ok,this entry isnt going anywhere. I better stop.

Chiow

   Yeah! The mid sem break has begun. After the break,i’m gonna have another 2 mid-sem exams, Microbiology and Engine Materials. Well,that is for later but for now lets ronggeng for at least 5 days. Another 5 days maybe i’ll start studying..(i said maybe..hehe)

   Right after organic exam yesterday,we went to watch Memoirs of a Geisha at OU. Midvalley and KLCC was fully booked and most probably the ticket was sold out. Usually our movie outings consist like 5-6 person max. But yesterday, we went there by two cars, Khair’s and Lutfi’s. Thanks to the driver,we dont have to take public transport

   Our movie was at 8.45pm. We arrived at OU at 6.30pm,eat at the old wing food court (i had Ramen,Tempura and Tofu steak..err..tak sedap sgt ), went for maghrib prayer, window shopping for 15 minutes at Union Bay,FOS and then went straight to gsc. Me and Ruru had been waiting for this movie since last year, so i was looking forward for its realease. I didn’t read the book because i dont want to have high expectations and then feel dissappointed if the film was not as good as the book. (thats the case usually,rite?) So,I wanna watch the movie first,then only i’ll read the book.

   Our seat was 2nd row from the right. Not the best, but much better than the seatings when we watch Narnia and KingKong..arghh,sakit leher!

   It was good!!! looovvve it. I rather not write the review, u better watch it yourself. But anyways, on a technical level, Memoirs of a Geisha is a success. The cinematography is as beautiful as the film’s leading ladies are. The costumes are also impressive, award-friendly dialogue ,and the musical..aaaa..excellent! Unfortunately,Gong Li, Michelle Yeoh and Zhang Ziyi are all talented and extremely beautiful actresses, but they are not convincing as Japanese women. The fact that Ziyi and Gong Li are Chinese and Michelle Yeoh is Malaysian might have something to do with that..haha! One more thing, after 144 minutes,I learn precious little, if anything, about them. The details of geisha life is examined all too briefly in the movie though, but then again it is actually about the heroine herself. So,its ok.

   For those of you who does not know what Geisha really is, u might wanna watch the film. They are actually traditional Japanese artist/entertainer.Geisha were trained from young childhood. Geisha houses (okiya) sometimes took in young girls from poor families, and took responsibility for raising and training them. During their childhood, apprentice geisha, called maiko, worked first as maids, then as assistants to the house’s senior geisha as part of their training and to contribute to the costs of their upkeep and education. Strictly speaking, geisha are not prostitutes. Because they entertain men behind closed doors in an exclusive manner,i have no comment on that. Morally, i still strongly believe it is wrong, but it is actually a culture/historical thing in Japan, so…. Anyways, the confusion that surrounds this issue has been complicated by Japanese prostitutes who wish to co-opt the prestige of the geisha image, and by inaccurate depictions of geisha in Western popular culture. Although an individual geisha may choose to engage in sexual relations with one of her patrons outside of the context of her role as geisha, traditional and codified geisha engagements will never involve sexual activity. In the movie, it shows that a geisha may choose to take a danna (an old fashioned word for husband), which is typically a wealthy man who has the means to support a geisha as mistress. Although a geisha may fall in love with her danna, the affair is customarily contingent upon the danna’s ability to financially support the geisha’s lifestyle. The traditional conventions and values within such a relationship are very intricate and not well understood, even by many Japanese. Because of this, the true intimate role of the geisha remains the object of much speculation, and often misinterpretation, in Japan as well as abroad.

   Ehmm..interesting facts,i think. Its more about learning Japanese culture in the 18-19th centuries. I’m not sure about modern geisha nowadays, do they still exist..haha..anyways,the movie was nice..I give it 4.3/5…hehehe

Ok,adios

  Wake up kinda early today. Well, ‘my early’ if im at home would be before 10..haha. I’ve finished my ungs report assignment and almost done with the power point slide. The text when im presenting,not yet. I plan to go back to UIA today at 10,right now, 10.14am and im still in front of my pc. Heheh..wei,too lazy la nowadays.Seriously,somebody tell me what happen to my brain? so messed up. I have tons of work to do. Let see my ‘to do’ list

1. Finish preparing presentation text,most probably my group will be the first to present

2. Study organic chem chap 2. The quiz is tomorrow.

3. Start working for special task,IVEC. The event is next weekend. So,this week is going to be hell. Long hours preparing door gift,certificates,etc. Less sleep.Ermm..interesting

4. Organic chem report. Due date is thursday, but refering to no 3..i might dont have time to do later. So..

5. Looking for sponsors and butik company for KOMMEX fashion show. But, we’re still waiting for proposal being approved for this one. So,its ok

6. Prepare plan B for KOMMEX trip to Korea,find a contact person from Seoul National Uni,ask about accomodation,etc..ok,this is a lot..breath

7. I have to start doing no 1..

Hehe..ok for now,chiow me.. 

   Yeah,this is my first entry of 2006. You see,i just realized how much i love blogging. Instead of doing my ungs assignment that due in 2 days, or studying for organic chem’s quiz on Tuesday, i blog..hahah..this is why i hate staying at home. No work can be done. There’s always astro,dvds and internet. Err..in my case the internet. I can just sit in front of the laptop doing..err..what did i do?? haha..what a waste of time..well,surfing friendster only could take me 1-2 hours..oh,by the way..i’ve designed my friendster profile..u notice?? hehe..its pink..yea yeah..pink makes my day..urghh..i know it doesnt look 21,but i never feel 21..i’ve never even feel 20..time flies!..wait,im not 21 yet. I have another 4 months..haha..what i’ve accomplish all this years? licensed..not yet. First boyfriend,nope..hahha..but thats ok..i plan to be in love after marriage(if i ever be in one)..hahha..it sound cute and well,let see..legal..ngeh ngeh ngeh..but about that licensed..yes,i cant wait to drive ‘again’. Scared..a lil..but more to excited. You see, driving is freedom..and for this year,i want freedom. Freedom from anything that can make me feel less independent. If that mean guys..well,so be it.

   Oh,and yeah..i wanna feel good about myself..so,haters..leave now..!! hahah..(quote from nino)..there’s no more ms nice girl..well,i am still going to be nice but not if i dont feel appreciated. Maybe, nobody knows this. But i have this sudden urge to please people. I cannot stand people being mad at me. If i made a mistake,i’ll try my best to make up for it…hehe..ever heard of the word, guilt haunts?..hahaha..Miss everything being as it used to be,though.Right now, i dont know where my heart is..(hahah..i bet nobody knows what im talking about…nothing actually,its a matter of heart,its mine)…hahah..penin? biar je la

   Emmm..ape lagi?? thats it kut..oh,i’m listening to the song My destiny by Misha Omar over and over again..loovvee it..hehe..and wait,i..ermm..never mind..i have to do slides for my presentation. Damnn..since when im too relax? ishh..khair,u influence me to be..errr u? hahahah..well,if i have a brain like urs no problem then..ngeh ngeh..kidding

   Peace k,im outta here :=)