My world: The Cherryblossom Garden

I was surfing the net looking for potential sponsors for our trip to korea next year while listening to some songs in my computer. Tiba2 je sampai lagu Things i’ll never say by Avril Lavigne..i forgot how much i used to love the lyrics..just wanna share this..nothing important

Things i’ll never say

I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head

[Pre-Chorus]
(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah

[Chorus]
If I could say what I want to say
I’d say I wanna blow you… away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What’s on my mind
If it ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say

[Pre-Chorus]

Guess I’m wishing my life away with these things I’ll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I’d say I wanna blow you…away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I’ll never say

26th Nov 2005

Hehe..First and foremost,the title has nothing to do with what im writing..i woke up at noon..shi**!!..didnt i suppose to go to antie Rohana’s kebun today? i checked my dad’s car..nope,gone..ishh..after subuh ingat nak tido sekejap je,terlajak plak..tak dapat tgk ikan,kucing,ayam,itik gemuk2 kat kebun tu :-( 

Petang ni ade open house kat rumah my uncle, so malas nak makan..tak lapar pun..semalam tido lambat sbb stay up tgk dvd. Ade banyak cite yg pinjam kat speedy video blum habis tengok. Malam tu habiskan tgk simply irresistable, Sarah Michelle Geller and Sean Patrick Flannery. The movie is nice,not one of the best but ok. Jalan cerita simple je but i always like watching ‘romantic comedy’. Sepatutnye nak buat movie marathon that night. Lepas Simply Irresistable, nak tgk cerita The Deep end of the ocean. About 1.10am ingat nak tutup pc,sian pc tu..24-7 tak tutup..hehe..tiba2 tgk msn,khair online plak..Hari ni birthday dia..dah bagi sms wish birthday tapi dah nampak dia online,wish je la lagi..lama plak chat,siap main bejeweled satu game lak tu..as usual i lost..nyesal lak selama ni tak pernah try main game tu..actually im not so much into games..game bodo2 je la,tu pun kalau dah busan tahap cipan..the sims2 tgk mood..kalau cuti panjang2,bleh la..kalau tak silap macam selalu je nampak pipah main bejeweled kat pc dia..hehe..kalau tau cuti ni kena lawan bejeweled kat msn ngan khair mesti dah lama praktis..takpe2..sem depan masih ade..ehh ape ni..ade hati lagi nak berfoye-foye sem depan lepas amik final macam amik quiz je sem lepas? lupa plak,azam nak jadik nerd sem depan..walaupun setiap sem azam nak jadi nerd tu tak pernah dilupakan, sem kali ni lebih sket azam sbb kisah final exam yg lepas masih fresh dalam ingatan..cuak tahap tertinggi,masuk exam cam takde input walaupun tak tido beberapa malam dah..i dunno why..rasenye spm pun tak secuak masa amik final aritu..spm cam ready je..eh yeke?..tak ingatla plak..tapi ape2 pun,last final exam sgtla cipannye..not to mention the result thats gonna come out in 2 days..im scared like hell but i think im ready..whatever my result is, no more turning back..what ahead is more important..just wait n see..

Looking back, cuti ni walaupun tak sempat pegi cuti2 malaysia cam dulu..best je..dapat rilex2,tenangkan fikiran n get rejuvenate utk berjuang next sem..Hehehe..awal2 cuti tu plan nak buka puasa ramai2 kat chicken hartz..yg plan nak peginye ramai tp yg jadinye 4 org je. Ruru,bash,khair n me…it was nice :-)..mostly, cuti ni pegi jalan2 tgk wayang je la..banyak plak cite yg best kuar masa cuti ni..Hmm..zorro 2,the corpse bride,chicken little,emily rose and harry potter..pastu 12th Nov haritu buat open house..Thanx a lot pada sape yg datang..Ruru,bash,sara,xaty,nad,una,kirun,faiz,farhana,wani,acap, khair&mohsin+maryam..ade yg tertinggal tak? hehe..anyways,susah2 je dtg..tima kasih byk2..and oso firdaus and muharam yg datang masa kuih dah abis..hehe..hmm..oh ye,thanks faiz, ajak datang umah open house..hmm..thats about it..yg lain tu biasala raye2 kat kampung..

I have one more week before the new semester starts. phewww..belum ape2 dah tau next sem mmg busy..In January, kena buat keje IVEC..sambil tu kena concentrate keje KOREA plak..tu mmg kena pulun,kalau tak sia2 je jadi committee..aja2 fighty!

ok thats it..come to think about it, the title boleh relate pun after all…somebody has to wake me up when this November ends..i slept so much..errr…yea..sooo muchh..but who hasnt? hehe..

Tak prasan pun tiba2 je dah nak abis cuti sem ni..tak sempat pun tido 3 hari mcm dirancang..hehe..Im gonna miss doing nothing bcoz after the semester starts next month, i’m not sure how sane im gonna be..the workload,the sleepless nights,the pressure of ‘not understanding’..hehe..banyakla..it scares me just to think about what my result this semester might look like..but i guess,im not going through this alone..thats how student’s life is right? there’s nothing important to write but im just simply bored..wake up late today sebab semalam tido lambat organizing my computer..installing stuff,etc..and then online(cam biasa la,thats what i do everyday bila cuti)..i end up surfing the net for hours..smp basyirah call ajak chat..hehe..thanks basy..u have no idea how bored i am..damn..how i miss my friends..nino,dayah,sara,pipah,akram,nita,faiz,fahan,syaza,kirun,una,nad..sumerlaa..nak tulis ramai sgt..cant wait to c u guys..

   This is the 3rd time my hard disk crash. yepp!!..I havent checked yet but im pretty sure all my 5GB++ songs,pictures,and data files are gone..dah tak larat nak sedih..dulu masa 1st time sedih kut, 2nd time sedih gak..3rd time ni cam.."la..rosak eh??" hehe..Beli baru je la..nasib baik my bank (ayah yg best!) tak tanya banyak when i told him i need money to buy a new hard disk..this time memang kena jaga baik2 laa..bila lagi nak upgrade video card,dvd writer,tuka flat screen?? asyik tuka hard disk je..Nak gi low yatt satu hal, my sis pg kerja guna my mum’s car sbb kereta dia rosak, nak pegi sendiri naik lrt? ajak intan, dia ade byk keja kat rumah..runiz,dok jauh la..sian plak nak pegi semata-mata nak teman beli hard disk je..ermmm..hehe..sape lagi? khair laa choice terbaik ajak pg mana2 sejak akhir2 ni..sape suruh dok dekat?? hehe..about 11.45 kuar rumah pegi low yatt,jalan jam sket la..sampai2 je,terus pegi beli hard disk..tak sampai 5 min urusan rasmi for that day dah selesai..lepas makan2,ktorang balik rumah..tak sabar nye nak main sims2 kat computer sendiri setelah 3 minggu pinjam computer akak..

19th November 2005

Dah lama tak tulis blog..malas. Nothing much happen pun..Raya biasa je,kat melaka..cuti,cuti,bla bla..tapi tadi i got a phone call from my friend,fahan..she was crying and said she had an accident last night and couldnt remember anything..she kept asking me,nak amik exam macam mana?..ha?? masa mula2 tu,tak paham ape2 pun yg dia ckp, most of it dont make sense..and then tiba2 je she hung up..i called her back and talked to her mum..lps tu baru faham..dia accident lepas balik keje semalam, bila sedar dia nangis sbb tak ingat ape2..dia takut ade exam..so,she called all her friends..lepas dpt phone call tu,i went to her house..dia tinggal kat selayang je,not far from my house..Sampai2 je,terus mak dia bawak masuk bilik..luka banyak tapi rasanye takde jahit..masa tu dia masih nangis lagi..and asked me macam mana dia nak amik exam..i told her,"skrang dah cuti, fahan..kita dah takde kelas,smp next month"..dah lama2 sket borak tu,dia dah mcm ok sket although she kept asking the same question over and over again..dia tak ingat dia dah tanya kut..Tapi,dalam sakit2 pun..bleh gak buat lawak tu..she told me.."aku dah tanak keje dah smp bila2,dah kawen pun tanak pegi keje.Ni dah 3 kali aku accident, lps ni tatau la ape jadi kalau accident lagi. Aku tanak bawak motor lagi,serik!" Lepas i told her that her mum wouldnt repair her scoot,dia ckp "la,abis tu mcm mane aku nak pegi kelas?’"..haha,baru seminit cakap dah serik..i’m so glad she’s fine..nasib baik cuti ade lagi 2 minggu..at least ade time utk dia recover before class starts on december. I dont think she had amnesia,or at least i hope its nothing like that..maybe dia trauma je..

Fahan accident,my sis pun accident 2 days ago-nasib baik rosak keta je..arghhhh..baru ingat nak amik lesen sem depan..tanakkkkkk!!!…

Miss u babe..hope u’ll be alright soon..

Future major mate