My world: The Cherryblossom Garden

  What usually people wrote on blogs huh? i always wonder..is it wise to write one’s feelings or bla bla online..like what my friend said..A personal diary laid bare..(ehehe..)..but im so pissed and sad right this moment..usually,i burden peeps,runiz or nino with this but im nowhere near none of them now..hmm..well,im the kind of person who never keeps any personal feelings, (sadness,fear,anger,happiness) to myself..and that’s what bothering me right now..hmm..ckp ape2 nak cakap..pastu baru terfikir nyesal..kalau ngan kawan2 biasa takpelaa..diaorang faham sbb dah biasa ngan my perangai..tp kalau org tak kenal, sure ingat b**tching giler..i dont usually care what people think of me..but what i did about 2 weeks ago really really makes me wonder bout my attitude.."Maybe dah masuk university ni,kena ubah sket kut perangai budak-budak. Ade time kena fikir ape org kate kat kita..yg elok jadikan pengajaran..bleh ubah diri"..camtulaa lebih kurang peeps akan kata..hehe..betula tu..tapi for me cara ‘org tu’ tegur menyakitkan hati sbb lebih kepada mengumpat/mengutuk..kalau ckp straight depan2 dah tak melibatkan org lain takpe kut..and now,kalau jumpa ‘org tu’ awkward giler..rase cam nak lari,xnak tgk muka dia..tapi mana bleh..dalam seminggu mesti nampak jugak beberapa kali..ish ish..benci nye!! 

    Ntah2 ramai gak kut bothered with perangai me and my friends yg tak tentu hala happy sentiasa ni..jalan mana2 pun bising sbb gelak kuat2..haha..dalam kelas ape lagi..confirm..tp bukan subject serius2 laa..setakat lab/tutorial..time blaja,mmg blaja..thats me..kalau jumpa sape2 yg kenal mmg ktorg akan tegur..paling tak,senyum angkat kening..ntahlaa,mmg rasa rapat je ngan sumer org kat engine tu..tapi maybe bukan sumer org rasa benda2 camtu perlu kut..especially when it comes to bro-sis’s relationship kat dlm uia ni..my friends slalu cakap.."kalau kat luar takpe kut, tp dlm uia org akan pandang pelik" setakat gurau2 sket,pun pandang pelik dan cakap2 kat belakang ke? I’ve always limit myself when it comes to this..our(nino & me) ‘flirting’ ends where it starts..bukan ‘flirt’ pun sebenarnye..gurau2 yg selalunye org akan gelak pastu go on je laa..sbb xde pape pun..just our way of bonding and making friends..its really sad when this sorta thing diceritakan sesama diorang..dan ape ntah lagi..senior plak tu..of course laa lagi memalukan sbb kalau batch sendiri mesti boleh clear things up..and now..kalau nampak pun ‘org tu’ buat muka lebih kerek dari biasa..dahlaa mmg sedia ade pun muka ‘kerek’…maybe its my fault fire balik ‘org tu’ lps tau kisah dia menceritakan hal kitorang kat kawan2 dia..ntah laa brape byk kawan sbb sampai jugak kat sis balik..hmm…

   Tataulaa ktorg ni mangsa ke pemangsa dalam benda ni..maybe jugak ‘org tu’ tak effect ape2 sbb dia xkisah pun benda2 alah camni…tp,just think kalau dia perempuan and benda camni diceritakan pada lelaki…one way or another..it will make us look bad..(not that what they think is important..) I dun think dis will make things better…just my way of getting relieved..but anyways,i’m really sorry if i ever hurt anyone with anything i said or did..truly am..

Hollaback Girl
Uh huh, this my s***
All the girls stomp your feet like this
A few times I’ve been around that track
So it’s not just gonna have been like that
Because I ain’t no hollaback girl
I ain’t no hollaback girl
[2x]

I heard that you were talking s***
And you didn’t think that I would hear it
People hear you talking like that, getting everybody fired up
So I’m ready to attack, gonna lead the pack
Gonna get a touchdown, gonna take you out
That’s right, put your pom-poms down, getting everybody fired up

A few times I’ve been around that track
So it’s not just gonna have been like that
Because I ain’t no hollaback girl
I ain’t no hollaback girl
[2x]

So that’s right dude, meet me at the bleachers
No principals, no student-teachers
All the boys want to be the winner, but there can only be one
So I’m gonna fight, gonna give it my all
Gonna make you fall, gonna sock it to you
That’s right, I’m the last one standing, another one bites the dust

A few times I’ve been around that track
So it’s not just gonna have been like that
Because I ain’t no hollaback girl
I ain’t no hollaback girl
[2x]