Just a Little Crush :-)
Tuesday, September 13th, 2005When i was 15, i thought i was in love with Jeff Hardy (Yup..the WWF wrestler)..Looking back,it seems silly yet funny how i use to cut off his pictures from magazines and printed out anything there is to know about him on the internet. But it wasn’t long before i realize the silliness of falling in love with a famous person that didnt even know i existed. That was the last star-crush i had until now. The funny thing is, a good friend of mine still developed this interest now that she’s almost 20. She have the picture of Rain (the famous korean actor/singer) on her computer desktop and she bought all his concert cd’s and stuff. Well,not only him of course,she’s also into many other taiwan,korean famous figures..i always tease her about it,but it doesn’t mean anything bad,just something we would both laugh about. Thinking about it,it’s better that way than having your crush right in front of you,but still you cannot do anything about it. At least,when you have a star-crush, you know it’s not going to happen..Well,having a crush does sound familiar to me and most of my friends. Let me go into a little bit of the details..hhehe..your heart skips a beat,you get tongue-tied and you are happier when he’s around-that’s how cleo describes crush..haha..how cliche..For me,a crush can bring no harm. Its a normal and healthy part of life as long as you dont stepover the boudaries and keep them in perspective. Either when you like someone or someones like you,its not going to be a problem. A friend of mine, use to get an unfriendly look everytime she bumps into her crush, maybe that’s not what he meant or she’s being over sensitive about it,im not sure..
Ok,enough of everybody else..hehe..firstly, I’d like to admit that Ive never been in a serious relationship ever. I mean,seriously..i got my own reasons and maybe Allah has He’s own plans, and the lucky guy (I mean, he must be one helluva lucky guy since I reserved all my feelings for him, muahahah), must be someone that just suited me. Hopefully and I’m keeping my fingers crossed 
I’ll let you know what i look for in a guy..not that anyone will be interested anyways, but what the heck, I just felt like writing it down,ok..hehe..i’d go for a guy who is friendly and funny (i dont mind if he’s friends with a lot of girls..that shows he’s not some kind of nerd or anti-social), doesnt need to be handsome(haha..i’ll always think he’s cute if i like him anyways), speaks good english(my english is lousy,so he would be able to compensate me), he knows how to talk (not only hello,dah makan,buat ape tu kinds of stuff) and older by a few years is a bonus since i always think that boys are late bloomers (no offence eh..hehe) and i think i might have found someone similar to that criteria..i’m not sure so i’m just enjoying the moment..no strings attached-just a simple pleaseant feeling whenever i bump into him or talking to him-..i dont take those kinda things seriously,so i’d never worry of getting to caught up or anything like that..
I have no specific reason of writing about this today..im just too bored studying calculus although i have 3 assignments waiting to be done..One thing i know for sure,i know my priorities and boundaries..i know my friends will probably throw up or laugh at me when they read this but still, hey *****,you’re the funniest,most attractive,smartest,most fascinating person i know and having this little-crush on you have actually managed to make my day..hahaha..
Taktau la,sem ni macam tak tentu arah sket..Quizzes and exams sume tak score..nak kate amik banyak subject,xpun..14.5 je,compared ngan org lain 15 above.Hopefully,dalam masa terdekat ni, i can get my rythem back..bukannye ape,kalau carry marks sket,bahaya tu masuk final exam..takkan setakat nak lulus je..mesti nak maintain pointer..takpe..takpe..’aja-aja fighty!!’..hahaa..